Finding your voice

I was going to do a reverse engineer, but as it daunted on me.  There has been many conversations with different stages of writers that all have one thing in common....DOUBT!!
We all have heroes that we look up.  Either it be Stephen King, Clive Barker, or any other multitude of  authors, directors, Batman or what ever is your hero of choice. Yet some people try to be stupid little candle of what they are.  It doesn't matter how much you ask them a question....it's always the same.
I admire this person and I like this and that.  Yet it isn't who they are.  If you force something out of you.  It's not your voice.  You are trying to hard to be something that you are not.
Take it from me.
When I fell from what I call my own grace...from what I thought was this surreal version of what my life should have been.  I had my voice.  Till it was taken away.  For a long while, I tried to find my own voice by trying to mimic others.
Yet that isn't who I was.  It did take a special person to help me, even though I fought him.. Thinking he didn't know me well enough, but the problem wasn't him, but me.  I didn't believe in my own voice as a person and as a writer.
We as a writer don't need others to help find our voices.  We need to find it ourselves.  The first step in becoming the writer, director, producer, super villain, hero or what ever we want to become....we need to find our voice.
So how do we find it?? Search your soul.  If you can't write gore...it's because you probably you are not meant to.  Don't fight it.  I know my voice and it's a pretty scary one.  I can write with own voice, it took years to find it. 
The first step in becoming that unstoppable artist that lies within you is to find your own voice.  Yes, you can people you look up to, but remember that they are nothing but inspiration.  Don't be like them.  You can't be them.  WHY??? Because you are you!!  Not them.  You're voice is unique...and maybe someone will compare you to someone, but don't strive to be anyone but you.
Sit
Soul search
Write some pieces till you find what you would sound like.
Be yourself

Find your voice is not as easy as it may sound until you stop being other people and start being you.



Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Uploading....

Illuminations of the Soul/Obscurities of the Heart was e-published in 2010 and in printed form in 2011.  There is an easy format  for publish the hard print and the E-book format.  Yet...the most stupid mistakes can happen and can frustrations...so I will be doing a blog on publishing your books...for both Amazon, Smashwords and offbookshelf.com

I understand their is going to be people being frustrated with the whole self-publishing...it's fucking work...but I will hopefully try to help

Please stay tuned....



Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Rework

Since I got my new photo program.  I have been re-doing the covers.  Since people have asked to release a few stories, which I am not going to lie...sort of put me in some serious thought.  Should I release singles or as a triple threat??  Which everyone requested both.  Granted as E-books...they will be great, but leave the original concept of the collection of 13-short stories. 

Before

After

I can tell you that it is interesting to redo the covers.  I even did a new cover for Rejection with the new programs.  I must say...it was a lot of fun.  Well...alright loads of fun.  Yes, I should be writing or even correcting but reworking the covers into what I needed seems to be more fitting.  It sort of feels like a before and after.  You have the fat person and the next picture is of the skinny person.
Granted I am not going to say that my covers were fat...they just needed a lot of room for improvement.
I had e-published the Devil's hand, but now...I think I will pay it a visit and redo it better...scarier.  A visit down memory lane just to improve it.
I think the after is much better than the original.  I guess it is a lot like me.  I wasn't much about 3-years ago and now....much better...lol

Stay tuned......

Writing

I have been putting off blogging about some writing points for a while.  I know for a couple of weeks, I was busy trying to restore a lot of missing files that I was nearly completed on my Novella and on my collection of short stories.
I have sniped some people on Amazon.  Which reading their reviews, some had gotten great reviews while others were in my eyes humiliated by telling them that their works has never seen an editor or even worse that their kid could write better than them.
In this day and age where self-publishing has become a fad for those that are wanting to be a writer.  Yet, they are mimicking the best. It's one thing to be a copy-cat but create your own voice.  Real writers work hard to achieve their own voice.  I try to trick it up some. Yet, I when I write I have a several step process.   I can say I have been mentoring someone that is an aspiring writer.
Yet, today I realized that I need to write these writing points...because I can't always be mentoring a person.  I have my own child to worry about.  My writings one day will influence her into following her own dreams despite what anyone says.  I want her to understand that we may be struggling now, but when the time comes she will be able to remember that mom never gave up...even when I have wanted to
I had someone believe in me and I guess I have been wanting to believe in those...to help them out, but hell...I think if I just guide their happy ass to my blogs...then it will save me time.
So...writing points here I come...


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Clowny Terror

I know embracing my demented humor and dislike for clowns has to be worked for something.  So I created this demented, but funny short-short script that will be filmed based on a joking conversation with Chris Warner.  I know one night during our long conversations that made me wish for a clown to come up and scare the crap out of him but in a way that would also make people laugh.
Yes, I'm fucked in the head for even thinking such shit.  Yet again...Chris would really need some sort of Clown to come up and scare the shit out of him.  It could happen with a little cinematic magic.  But I'm pleased with the little short-short and hell It would be nice as a short in a DVD in the start of the movie of in a section. Besides there is tons of film fests that allow for short-shorts....

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Askew Ball: Author's Note

Askew Ball was originally suppose to be written as a short story, but upon meeting Trevor Thomas Murray and getting to know him.  I had talked about this demented little story that turned into a short script that he believed in me enough to submit it to Broom Street Theater during a little contest they were having back in November of 2009.  I came back to this twisted and yet funny tale, because I was mentoring an aspiring writer by telling him that he should write what he wanted to and not because of what everyone else told him to.
Granted Trevor never told me to write this tale in a script format, but upon many discussions with him.  It just felt like it could go both ways as a short story and a short script to be made by my fledgling production company.  In honor to keeping true to what he said to me...about doing what you makes you happy.  When i read it this hilarious tale, it reminded me of a time that underneath all the stress and bullshit that came with the stress I was in.  Writing this tale made me happy because one person believed in me beyond anything and he made me happy.  I never really told him or anyone till now.  But when I wrote Askew Ball in the short script format it was really for him. 
Now I write it because writing makes me happy. 

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~