Square one

I decided to keep the blog. 

Yes, I know.  A great opening line, I did however after much ponder and thought decided to keep the blog.  Just need to put more time and effort into it like I did in the beginning. 

It seems with every beginning it will take more to crawl than to run.  It seems that with the latest fiasco has me in such anger than anything. 

I have never met someone so jealous or spiteful in my life that they love to blame the other person.  But like in anything I believe in “Just rewards”, because being a Karma believer that a person trying to harm another will eventually get harmed in the end.  It may take years or right away.

Eventually everyone feels the harm they have done to another.  I have a set of faith beliefs in place.  Granted they may not be what everyone practices, but I do not cause harm to another.  I do not believe in talking bad about another person.  I do not believe that hurting a family because you are a liar.

So in retrospect to everything.  I have decided to go back to square one.  I had asked people for help and got nowhere.

So as of today, it is a new slate.  A new everything…we’ll go forward renewed….

Irenia Guajardo

~Hellz Writer~

Closing

I think I may be closing my personal blog or open a new one. Only because reading the posts.  I have come a long way. Some were memories of a relationship that no longer existed and I was foolish enough to think he felt anything for me.  Even to the point of having several female stalkers harass me....even to the point where they acted like they had no idea why I was upset with them.
I have PTSD...and with that....I stay the hell away from people that I don't like.  I mean, I don't search for people that I want nothing to do with.  In the start of it, I was so mad, but as time went on...I realized that no matter what...they will always be there.  Creating fake accounts, trying to start something and instead of saying anything.  I just report them.
Last year, I had found something by accident and they acted like it was some sort of lesson for me.  But reality was...they don't get it that I save and PDF everything they did. All simple notes to point at their harassing problem.
But I am above all that.  I read through my blogs...and I see loads of heart ache.  Pain and suffering.  Trials and tests.  Yes, when I started blogging....I had a great following on one page.  Then the problems started and I have since then created three blogs.  I guess it shows who was bothering whom.
But nothing was as awesome as that first blog.  I allowed comments.  I held conversations with my following and now.  I keep comments closed.  I have to moderate everything because of kids that can't read nor could they comprehend simple logic.
I am thinking of wiping the slate clean.  No memories of them.  Start fresh. I haven't even blogged here because of the constant monitoring and I did enjoy my personal blogs.  To some it made a difference and I miss that.  Hopefully, I can have that back....hopefully.


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~