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Monday, November 15, 2010

Hare Raisers

Little Simon Hareball enjoyed being told what to do
No one understood what was wrong with him
Till he cut his veins and used them as strings
Poor Simple Simon living his life in a mental hospital

Jump around Missy Cottontail
Annoying your brothers' with twisted jokes
Missy may not be a good-looking bunny
There is no sunshine about this tale

Laney Bunny always sat in a dark room
Huddled to herself silent in a corner
No one knew what to expect
Seeing Laney Bunny room covered in blood

Tiny Tim loved to play with his toys
Enjoying them as the voices in his head
Till one day he was playing with a nail gun
Now Tiny Tim looks like a pincushion

Sleep tight adorable Betty Muffet
Dream of far away fantasy lands
When you wake you shall find
Now you're the home of spiders

Dead Bunnies hit the floor
Trying to escape the death around
Can't escape the anguish that has befallen
Touching you makes them feel alive

See them lurking in your room
Dead bunnies are everywhere
Raising the dead to be one with you
Holding close your little Hare Raisers


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Writing Thoughts

When you read about writing and so forth, they always give you a list of do's and don'ts.  It sort of applies to life if you really think about it.  Some writers swear aby starting your book with action and other writers swear to the heavens above that you should never start with action.  As I begin this chapter in my life, I started off slow...but realized that once I let go of the negativity that had been bogging down my spirit, I have become a sponge.  The essence of it all is becoming more and more clear to me.  Sort of an amazing feeling and you start to remember why you enjoyed the internet. Simple pleasures brought to life.
I may not spend hundreds of dollars on movies or other form of entertainment, but the internet is everything I could hope for.  It is a virtual world filled with information on the super higway of knowledge.  You can be home and speak to a person in Venice about movie making or chat with a flock of writers in a chat room.  Some once told me they had to give up their dreams because they were going to be a parent.  Yet with all these wonderful resources at your finger tips, why wouls you give up on your dreams??
For the past few months I feel like I have been drowning in a sea of memories that started to consume my very mind.  As I started meditating with a friend of mine, I started to see the black aspect that has consumed me. Terrible really.  Yet we have the power to change our lives.  We may not be happy with the politics or the religion in today's society but we can change our life.  The power is in our own hands to do so and all it takes is the ganas {{desire}} to do it.  We are taught to follow our hearts, but there is days we need to lead our hearts down the right path to pursue our dreams.  For a long while my heart wept like a little child at the broken memories that have been formed around its little core.  Instead of being mean to my precious fragile heart...it was a choice to tell it that it is ok to hurt, because it had know love and loss. 
Taking that precious little heart and leading it down the right path.  It takes years to grow in to the person you want to be and I am prepared to take that road..one step at a time.  For now my mind has become a sponge and I am grateful that I am returning to the basics.  To be that writer you need to remember your past and your journey and incorporate it as well as everything else you are researching. As my day started with the great news of recieving my ISBN in my email box.  YES!! My ISBN and I started to reseach and for the last 12-hours or more...I found my passion sparking again.  I thank one person for sparking my writing in April but once you remove the reason that spark was created, you start to realize that this passion is still there.  You remove all negative feelings...hatred, sadness, hurt or anything else that clogs your soul up.
Then you start to reach for the positive..love, passion, desire...you start to see a path open up that you never experienced before.  Nothing matters anymore but your drive...the desire...the passion.  You start to remember little things that reminded you of why you wanted to become a writer.  You remember that teenager and how much fun it was to sit in the library when you ditched school just to read books.  Yes, I ditched school to be in the library just to read books on any subject I chose to.  Today it felt the same way, I ditched my regular duties of cleaning my apartment just to research information on the internet.  Not searching for answers to the mysteries of the universe or my heart, but remembering how much fun it was to find things.  Today my mind was a sponge and I even remembered an old email account that I haven't been to in over a year.  Shocking to see over 7-thousand emails in that account.
Even my baby loved the articles I was reading to her.  I felt like I was back in school...learning from the masters.  I had a love for school but when I did ditch it was because I had read the entire chapter in advance and I didn't want to be bored.  Today it felt like that.  For some reason when I write my story and it comes out on paper, for some odd reason it feels incomplete and I needed to find out why.  I have been writing my novel for more than 30-days and it doesn't feel write.  I felt like I am missing something and I needed to find out what.  Just like you are in school you ask a professor about your problem you are facing and they give you examples and information to help you.  Since the internet is at my fingertips, I was able to ask and find out a lot of information and it was a lot of fun to discover all I have.
I found out for one that April is National poetry month as November is National write a novel month.  I learned that when you write your first draft, you get it out of your head and forget about grammar or anything else.  You write and you just let it all out.  For me, I like a set schedule...I want to have predictable life..yet with a baby. Well you never get predictable or mundane.  So instead I got fustrated with my schedule, my life and everything else around me.  Today's educational experience I learned that you can have two formats for a writer.  Set amount of pages or a set schedule and since I can't have a set schedule.  I need to learn to work around what I got.  Being a single mother and with a 6-week old baby, I need to work with her.  So when I can't be writing with two hands, then I can at least read an article to my daughter while absorbing the information.  It is true..you can look at a glass as half full or half empty.  Either way you look at it there is liquid in there at a half way point, but you can look at it in a positive or negative.
It is just nice to finally start to see life through different eyes.  Change your tatics..change your ways...can't try the same thing and expect different results.  It is a good feeling to be able to figure some of this out and get what I needed out of the way.  The next few months should be very exciting.  I am excited about the quest for knowledge and to share it with my daughter and here on my blog.  You learn from past mistakes and you take those lessons learned and try to change your life for the positive...the glass is half full.  We will see how exciting the next few days will be.  Being a single mother and a writer....life will sure be exciting

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Film Review: IDS2 (2010)

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With the radical and bold move by Cory J. Udler to have IDS 2 {{Incest Death Squad 2}} shown for free on Horror Society’s website as his World Movie Premier on September 17th at 9pm central time. Incest Death Squad 1 & 2 was written and directed by Cory J. Udler, who in the last 2-years has made a dramatic improvement in his story telling, camera angles and taking you deeper in to gutter cinema. Cory may even tell you that he is crazy for doing a free event, yet showing the low-resolution on Horror Society Website was a brilliant idea. If you truly want a better high quality resolution, then it is best to go and buy the DVD from the official IDS website.
Even though it was a low-resolution World premier, thanks to Horror Society was able to continue the event until 12am with live chat with the cast, crew and insane creator of IDS. For those that know about IDS {{Incest Death Squad}} this story continues a month later…even though it was shot a year later. The impressive thing about Cory is how he can produce a movie on a micro budget to actual no budget. When you meet the creator of IDS, he is a very down to earth guy who can chat your ear off about his passion for movie making. Which is that passion and drive that is shown brightly in IDS 2. The greatest thing is that Greg Johnson, Carmela Wiese, Melissa Jo Murphy and Tom Lodewyck all reprise their original roles from the first movie
Here is the continuation of the tale of Aaron, Andrea, and Amber & Jeb Wayne. During that month things have been left in the air. Amber Wayne {{Carmela Wiese}} has strong feelings for Aaron {{Tom Lodewyck}} and wants to let him know about his unborn child. Aaron on the hand has found a natural taste in “skull fucking” the dead, while his stay at home fiancée Andrea {{Melissa Jo Murphy}} has taking up some extra-sexual fun with the neighbor. You find out that sweet little Andrea hasn’t told her fiancée about her bi-sexual secret, but holds strong mistrust about Aaron keeping secrets from her, especially with him holding up in his downstairs office.
The scene cutting and flow of the story was incredible especially with the choice of music that the Cory had selected. The relationship between Amber and Jeb {{Greg Johnson}} is shown at a different level then the original movie. The love the Jeb has for Amber is shown more than the constant babble of religion that was shown in the first movie. He accepts reluctantly to take her to see Aaron and head on a road trip with blood, death and incest. The way Cory moves the movie in a tighter more intense feeling was seating gripping. The script proved to be more natural with what goes on between the lives of these two separate households. Seeing as shit goes out of control, when Amber calls Aaron’s house and speaks to Andrea.
Knowing that Amber can feel remorse for something and seeing that Jeb despite the deep rooted love for his sister, losses his temper and watch his actual reaction of this road trip that he did not want to take. During the process, Aaron confesses to Andrea about the night at the barn. Which leaves Andrea fuming and informs him about hiring her criminal cousin to hunt and kill the Waynes. Unlike the first IDS, there was some distance from the audience and the characters, but watching IDS 2, there is a connection towards the Waynes. Jeb really was the Anti-hero in this movie and even though killing people in the name of God is something the average person doesn’t want happening to them. Despite him killing a hooker in a park bathroom and asking God for forgiveness for how he treated his sister really showed the deep-rooted love and loyalty he really had.
You also find out how vulnerable Amber Wayne really is with out her brother’s un-godly protection when she takes on more than she can handle after a sexy table dance and bringing two men back to her room. Amber tries to take them on and instead you see her get raped and reveal to a very concerned Jeb that she lost the seed of Aaron. In a moment of shock and awed, seeing Amber scooping out the disgusting remains of the dead one month old out of the toilet. As the Waynes head out, the douche bag cousin finds where they are and tails them. Yet with everything, the long-winded monologue of a person that should really kill instead of talking ends up being shot. Which in the middle of this Andrea slowly follows Aaron as he sneaks out of bed to go down to his office and discovers his dirty little secret. Before the video started to malfunction Aaron had agreed to meet Jeb and Amber at some plant.
Over all, this movie isn’t a high budget production deal. It is a true Independent film that represents the passion, drive and determination of a fantastic person that likes to assume he is crazy. If a person is crazy for following their dreams and going beyond the lengths to make a film that he wants to share with the world. Then yes, Cory J. Udler is insane for following his passion and dreams, especially with a free World Premier that some people complained about because it was low-resolution. Free is free and in today’s day and age, shows even on a massive free event that people are never satisfied and how wonderful a person like Cory is by offering to give this person a free copy of the movie.
The saddest thing about true local Independent Film making is that Cory has another project in the works, but lacks funding. Most movie studios would do a fundraiser by auctioning off the movie props, but the thing is after speaking with Mr. Udler, he would actually spend more money on shipping and putting the item on E-bay than he would make any money to help fund his future project. Support your local Indie Film Production companies to help Directors like Cory J. Udler continue making movies and to see him develop his talent as an upcoming movie Director.

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~