Granted in my life at the time...I never thought it would be possible that I would ever write a children story...maybe a horror script. As it was...I had dabbled in dark comedy and it was a great thing. I made a couple of friends over it.
So the kids story...I created this huge story that I was told either to cut it in half or shorten it. But my son loved it. We did a focus group and the kids loved it. So....there goes the whole kid story thing on how it started. I had promised that I would dedicated it him.
The main title is Angela's Adventures. With each title underneath it. So the first one is Deep in the woods...and with the cut up...Now we have also have The Terrible Troll. Written in 2008....then in 2011...I wrote 3-more....One inspired by me.
The little Maple leaf....it was hard to write it...and my sister is correct...my children deserve to have this story dedicated to them. Through it all...my heart longs for them. I miss the hell out of them. But...as Marci said...I needed to focus on myself because it is hard to be anything...when you feel your heart is ripped apart. I know what was going through...especially when you loose..it's called a parent's death.
I know those that weren't there...didn't see how I felt...how I feel now...would never understand and make ASS-umptions. I know Tonya, Joanne, Katy, Jessica and several other people...were there to try to hold up a broken pillar. I understand those that don't truly know me...can make all these lies about me...because it makes them feel better....being judgmental.
I know....The Little Maple Leaf...was more about me...I always fought...fought...and I never knew when to give up....till I was told to. It tears me up in the inside to know that was 2-years ago.
But...it is true...get your life in order...focus on yourself...and that isn't some selfish thing....besides...they know about my daughter.....the little miracle that came into my world...to give me a second chance....and I can tell you...that she is a combination of them all.
She is very much like Wednesday Adams...especially creating her own story. It wasn't like a challenge, but watching her play....creating her story...I had to write it....and have it dedicated to her...and of course Story Idea by....she is truly wonderful.
I know...with all my friends...who are going through rough patches....it's just because they're children spreads a few lies....I know a friend going through that...and my heart goes out to her...because I know I made a grave mistake. It eats me up alive......but...that is who I write for...them.
I never imagined writing children stories...and they got accepted...so in good news...the world will get to enjoy a piece...of something that they inspired me. Even though my heart breaks for the ones that aren't with me...I am not dishonoring them by just giving up on my dream...and one dream is one day we will be together....I know it may be that dream...but until them....I will...continue like Marci suggested...and focus on getting my own life on track...rebuild Pompeii or maybe Rome....where I can believe in happy endings...but....until that day...
I am very proud...that their ideas are coming out...and drawing...my youngest daughter's pictures have become something a lot of fun...it helps try to mend a broken heart....it just felt like Wisconsin took a lot from me....but rebuilding....is the best to become a better writer...to heal the damages....of my past
Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~
