Angry Bitch

You say my words are abrasive 

You say my walls are heartless

You say my defenses are insensitivity

But that is all you'll ever see me as

Not once have you gone past that image

Dared not question the reason for such

Hiding behind my false mirage

Wrapping it around you like it is real

Though an angry bitch, I appear

Not once do you see the pain in my eyes

The hurt, I've ran across and buried within

Invisible scars etched on my immortal soul

Though a million reasons to be truly angry

All I'm looking for is true love and happiness

In this journey finding stupid fake ass people

Though this wall is up, do you see me?

Hiding painful tears from the world around

Curling into a little ball of heart break misery

Pretending to be stronger for my sanity

Longing to be wrapped in compassionate words

An angry bitch, I appear to your eyes

Making it easier to spread pathetic lies

Though you do not see the true me

Gentle woman crying underneath it all

The words I speak are truly abrasive 

Hiding behind a wall of heartless-ness

Guarding my defenses with insensitivity

All in guise of protecting me

My heart longs to find one day

That truly special man out there

One that will see past the angry bitch

Knowing a woman worth loving

Author's Note:
This poem was inspired by several female Facebook Buddies upon reading their posts.  They often refer to themselves as bitches, cunts and so forth but what I see is a woman who has a wall so far up that they need protection and yet a couple of them have found a man to love them past their anger....their rage...and are melting those walls down.  Of course I did add a little of my own heart.  Because of course...I have to been labeled a bitch...often a heartless one...or angry bitch.

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~