What dafuq??

Have you ever heard something so strange and unusual that you question...why the fuck are your telling me this??  It happens all the time....and it is strange that no matter how strange I hear this shit....it still leaves wondering....questioning....
WHAT DAFUQ!!!??
What dafuq was the purpose of that?? What are you thinking??
But the more we say that...the more it seems that it is always happening...and it gets worse and worse and worse.
According to the Bible....it is stated that if you honor thy mother and thy father that you will be blessed with a a prosperous life.  Yet....I don't know if that is suppose to be a great thing because it seems that honoring....seems to be at times a bit excessive.
With everything going on....I am actually tired of how my mother has been acting.  My father in a strange twist of events has turned around and be the good guy.  It seems that he is better as a long distance relationship.  
My mother on the other hand had offered to help me...not because I needed her...but she offered.  I could have gone and sought a babysitter and gotten free bus tickets.  But she offered to drive and babysit and I thought that was great.
Yet....as it turned out....I was blamed that she missed work interviews because of me.  BECAUSE OF ME!!  OR MY FAVORITE BECAUSE I COULDN"T FIND A BABYSITTER!!!  Like now...I have found a couple of people that can babysit and one lady was going to charge $15 per day...$25 for 12-hours. Reality that is not bad. 
So my mother talks to her money hungry Christian friends...and no disrespect to my Christian friends who read this....but she comes back that she should have been paid $25 for 8-hours and $50 for overnights....but it seemed that she is talking professional rates.  Which I have talked to several people ...and some people will cut you a deal...with $15 a day....even though it would be nice....to pay $25 when you can afford it.  But the thing is...she loves to use how I don't want to help her find a job....and all I want her to do is babysit. 
As funny as it was...the original agreement...was she babysits and I find the job and then...I find a babysitter...and she gets a job....I find my own place to live...she can stay until she has enough money and she can move out.
It is not that difficult...but she doesn't do that...she instead just bitches and complains about everything.  It's funny that the other day, she was telling about this lady that she met on the bus.  How "Monica" told her how great it was that she "NEVER" had kids.  How kids are such a problem??
I mean she is telling me this shit.  I mean....WHAT DAFUQ???
She once told me that when you repeat something...it's because you felt the same too....but in life...sometimes you repeat shit because you just spew it out...
So earlier today...she tells me that I should work on her resume...and do all this shit...when in fact I had my to do list.  She went to the library.....was gone for 3-hours.  Why the fuck couldn't she do it herself??  But again....I had to set my time for her. 
I did that in Oregon back in April.  I had thought I could job hunt and work on my resume, because as funny as it was that Tim was willing to watch my daughter....and all it would cost me...is smokes and making sure his phone was on.  Tim was technically low maintenance in comparison to my mother and father.
Yet everyone thought Tim was the infection and my mother the remedy....in fact it is the opposite.  My mother is actually a lot worse than Tim and my father put together. 
The woman is never happy and it's not my fault that my brother kicked her out.  She really didn't want to leave and not only that but she didn't want to live with me.....so I got stuck with her.  It's been hard because she doesn't want to help with anything.....she claims to wash her dish, but doesn't do anything else....she leaves her trash instead of throwing it out...she doesn't help with shit....
Yes, babysitting...big deal...she didn't like any of the other sitters I picked....so I told her today after her final blow up in my face....she can do what ever she wants....because I have ...had enough.  I am the bad guy no matter what....she loves to twists facts...times and shit like that....it's pathetic....
I had enough and I try not to post all the dramatic shit on my page because that is not great....not only that but since my miscarriage I have had 3-yeast infections and horrible ones.....to the point....and yes...I had poured peroxide on my private part just for it to dry out...and it worked....for at least a day...I take allergy medication to help ease the itching...and I have gone to the hospital where they have given me a shot...a pill...to help get rid of this....
I don't wear underwear to prevent any other chance of getting more yeast infections, but it doesn't help....my entire body chemistry is out of whack!! But does she care...no...she just complains about everything...and I mean everything....
It becomes to be a drain and a drag, because I am suppose to set everything aside after she belittles me....and I am suppose to go gun hoe for her...So next week...I'll be looking for more work and having the extra cash to pay for a babysitter...so I won't be needing her....anymore...I'm done with this constant bad daughter thing...and I have no need for it any more....
Telling me about how Monica tells her about how she travels the world....well go after Monica since nothing holds you back....
She once had told me that I shouldn't struggle alone...and she said this shit when Tim was leaving...so it was like...okay...I can deal with the blow about Tim leaving...but reality is...there is no reset button...and well...I finally had enough of this bullshit...
I mean how many women....put their family first!!!??  NOT MANY!!  NOT MANY AT ALL!!! Most women or men...are a drama drain on their parents...and instead...I have been trying...to ease this woman's depression about how my brother treated her...but enough is enough...
It's just time to cut the cord...and let her just go...let her leave her life....no more of anything....we do our thing and she does hers because...this 50-50% bullshit was really 90-10%....and I wait to see what her schedule is like...to work around it...and not anymore...
Like I told my friend, Chris....enough is enough....time to cut the cord!! I haven't lived with this woman since I was 13-years old and now I understand...why I stayed away from my family because they'll never approve of me nor love me....and I am sick and tired of it...

But in new starts...you need to remove the bullshit!!  I have a new author's site...and I would like to move towards that direction about more writing...

To be continued......

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Things you never say to a man

1. I've smoked fatter joints than that.
2. Ahhhh, it's cute.
3. Why don't we just cuddle?
4. You know they have surgery to fix that.
5. Make it dance.
6. Can I paint a smiley face on it?
7. Wow, and your feet are so big.
8. It's OK, we'll work around it.
9. Will it squeak if I squeeze it?
10. Oh no... a flash headache.
11. (giggle and point)
12. Can I be honest with you?
13. How sweet, you brought incense.
14. This explains your car.
15. Maybe if we water it, it'll grow.
16. Why is God punishing me?
17. At least this won't take long.
18. I never saw one like that before.
19. But it still works, right?
20. It looks so unused.
21. Maybe it looks better in natural light.
22. Why don't we skip right to the cigarettes?
23. Are you cold?
24. If you get me real drunk first.
25. Is that an optical illusion?
26. What is that?
27. It's a good thing you have so many other talents.
28. Does it come with an air pump?
29. So this is why you're supposed to judge people on personality.
30. I guess this makes me the 'early bird.

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Twisted Humor: Nature Walk

While walking through the Colorado woods, a man came upon another man hugging a tree with his ear pressed firmly against the tree. Seeing this he inquired, "Just out of curiosity, what the heck are you doing?" "I'm listening to the music of the tree," the other man replied. "You gotta be kiddin' me." "No, would you like to give it a try?" Understandably curious, the man says, "Well, OK...". So he wrapped his arms around the tree and pressed his ear up against it. With this, the other guy slapped a pair of handcuffs on him, took his wallet, jewelry, car keys, and then stripped him naked and left. Two hours later another nature lover strolled by, saw this guy handcuffed to the tree stark naked, and asked, "What the hell happened to you?" He told the guy the whole terrible story about how he got there. When he finished telling his story, the other guy shook his head in sympathy, walked around behind him, kissed him gently behind the ear and said, "This just ain't your day, is it cupcake?"...

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

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Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Twisted Humor: Raise

I, the P. Niss, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures.
Sincerely, P. Niss

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Dear P. Niss:
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in or der to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the correct protective clothing. You will retire well before you are 65. You are unable to work double shifts. You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have completed the assigned task. And if that were not all, you have been seen constantly entering and exiting the workplace carrying two suspicious-looking bags.

Available stories

I am hoping that I will have a press release set out for the short stories....and the mini collection. Yes, finally I got them accomplished...and it did take... almost pulling Tim's teeth out in help with editing, but he finally did....and well I was able to publish.  He wanted to do it the hard way by reviewing a PDF and then adding his notes...I told him to go instead...

Click on a picture and go buy a copy.....available on Amazon Kindle.  You can also download the app for your Android, PC, I-Phone or MAC.....

Available for 99 cents

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 And now available the mini-collection of Dementia....or Tales of Dementia Vol. 1

Available for 1.99

 Thank you so much and I appreciate your patronage.....and I will try to get more stories out.....this year...

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Dark Goddess

Stare at my ashen dead skin

Observe my hands smoldering your soul

Killing joy through lustful yearning

Make your bed and die in it

The woman to stare you in the eye

Violating your sensitive essence

Breaking apart your inner workings

Bringing you nearer to your Goddess

Consumed with dominating hatred

Assisting you to become some one else

Ripping your essence apart from within

Bringing you closer to your Goddess

Bringing you to your knees, you worship

Lifeless pale skin wanting to touch

Enjoying every moment of my presence

Feeding your consuming hatred

Call my name when you're happy

Bringing misery, torment and pain

Shouting for deliverance from life

Bringing you closer to the pain you seek

Releasing your pain in to the night

Bringing malice to those that deserve

Killing those Gods of your past

Breaking the hearts of loved ones

Fueling hatred to every living thing

Begging for relief from your torment

Selling your soul to your dark mistress

Ashen sinister Goddess of desolation

Releasing you from your confusion

Bringing you closer to your dark Goddess

You can find this poem and others in:

Illuminations of the Soul/

Obscurities of the Heart

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz writer~