Children Stories....

In 2008, my son Uriel...had issued a challenge.  Granted at the time...I was battling...and the only thing that was going through my mind was horror...death...giving up.  But...it was his idea about creating a little girl who was magical and loving.  Where ever she touched...she made a difference.
Granted in my life at the time...I never thought it would be possible that I would ever write a children story...maybe a horror script.  As it was...I had dabbled in dark comedy and it was a great thing.  I made a couple of friends over it.
So the kids story...I created this huge story that I was told either to cut it in half or shorten it.  But my son loved it.  We did a focus group and the kids loved it.  So....there goes the whole kid story thing on how it started.  I had promised that I would dedicated it him.
The main title is Angela's Adventures.  With each title underneath it.  So the first one is Deep in the woods...and with the cut up...Now we have also have The Terrible Troll.  Written in 2008....then in 2011...I wrote 3-more....One inspired by me.
The little Maple leaf....it was hard to write it...and my sister is correct...my children deserve to have this story dedicated to them.  Through it all...my heart longs for them.  I miss the hell out of them.  But...as Marci said...I needed to focus on myself because it is hard to be anything...when you feel your heart is ripped apart.  I know what was going through...especially when you loose..it's called a parent's death.
I know those that weren't there...didn't see how I felt...how I feel now...would never understand and make ASS-umptions.  I know Tonya, Joanne, Katy, Jessica and several other people...were there to try to hold up a broken pillar.  I understand those that don't truly know me...can make all these lies about me...because it makes them feel better....being judgmental.
I know....The Little Maple Leaf...was more about me...I always fought...fought...and I never knew when to give up....till I was told to.  It tears me up in the inside to know that was 2-years ago. 
But...it is true...get your life in order...focus on yourself...and that isn't some selfish thing....besides...they know about my daughter.....the little miracle that came into my world...to give me a second chance....and I can tell you...that she is a combination of them all.
She is very much like Wednesday Adams...especially creating her own story.  It wasn't like a challenge, but watching her play....creating her story...I had to write it....and have it dedicated to her...and of course Story Idea by....she is truly wonderful.
I know...with all my friends...who are going through rough patches....it's just because they're children spreads a few lies....I know a friend going through that...and my heart goes out to her...because I know I made a grave mistake.  It eats me up alive......but...that is who I write for...them.
I never imagined writing children stories...and they got accepted...so in good news...the world will get to enjoy a piece...of something that they inspired me. Even though my heart breaks for the ones that aren't with me...I am not dishonoring them by just giving up on my dream...and one dream is one day we will be together....I know it may be that dream...but until them....I will...continue like Marci suggested...and focus on getting my own life on track...rebuild Pompeii or maybe Rome....where I can believe in happy endings...but....until that day...
I am very proud...that their ideas are coming out...and drawing...my youngest daughter's pictures have become something a lot of fun...it helps try to mend a broken heart....it just felt like Wisconsin took a lot from me....but rebuilding....is the best to become a better writer...to heal the damages....of my past

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Ideas....

The next step in writing is formulating an idea.  Once you have figured out with minor worksheets on what's your voice and style.  Write what comes natural.  Writers write. 
Now is to think of an idea.  If you mention but this person already did it.  Yes, they did, but how many times has Dracula been told??  The vampire tale??  How many times has it been told??  Yet the latest psycho crazy is Twilight.  I seriously believe the idea was wonderful, but the following is just psycho.  I tried to read the books and yet the girls who wrap their mind around this need serious therapy.  That is my opinion.
My vampires don't sparkle, my vampires aren't romantics, my vampires are killers and yes you will have the vampire that is remorseful.  It's human nature.  It doesn't matter if you are a vampire, werewolf, demon or whatever....you will always have remorse.  Animals have it.
So you have an idea and yes, it may have been done.  But the thing is...what hasn't been done...is you.  There are stories around about cannibals, but if it was told via you...then it's different.  I have been working on a killer elf story and yet...I learned the other day that they are filming a killer elf story.  Okay, am I going to scrap that entire project???
HELL NO!!  I had this idea since 2008 and notes and never talked to this person who created their idea.  The thing is, the way I will tell my story will be different than the way they tell their story.  Big difference.  So here we are...we are laying in our bed....lounging in our chair....hanging upside down or what ever makes you comfortable.  Yes...comfortable.
You need to think of what your idea will be...some scary monster ripping some people apart.  The scary monster has already been done, but are you going to stop??  NO!!  The answer is hell no!!  You will write your scary monster...you will tell your tell.
How many times has the story been told about the prank caller/hidden caller/restricted caller.....how many times....via Scream and other stories that have told this story.  Doesn't mean that it hasn't been tried.  It all has been tried. There is nothing original anymore...it's just the way you tell your story....you need to know your voice...and not a copy cat of Stephen King or who ever is your idol.  You need to figure out who you want to be........don't copy anyone and I will say that over and over again.
Be yourself....even as a writer.  If you are demented in the mind and tell people your thoughts and they look at you funny...call you crazy...and what not....it's best to write it out, because if you can speak, you can write. If you can write...you can convey your idea for the world to read. 
What you need to think about is the idea....what you are passionate about....and from their convey it...write it down in a short but brief description.  Nothing major...no character names...we will go into that in my next blog. 
Is your idea about goblins, or trolls or vampires....what ever it is...write it down...either it be a one sentence to a paragraph about what your idea is about.....and leave it alone.  It doesn't matter if every day you write an idea down....just get it out of your head


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Finding your voice

I was going to do a reverse engineer, but as it daunted on me.  There has been many conversations with different stages of writers that all have one thing in common....DOUBT!!
We all have heroes that we look up.  Either it be Stephen King, Clive Barker, or any other multitude of  authors, directors, Batman or what ever is your hero of choice. Yet some people try to be stupid little candle of what they are.  It doesn't matter how much you ask them a question....it's always the same.
I admire this person and I like this and that.  Yet it isn't who they are.  If you force something out of you.  It's not your voice.  You are trying to hard to be something that you are not.
Take it from me.
When I fell from what I call my own grace...from what I thought was this surreal version of what my life should have been.  I had my voice.  Till it was taken away.  For a long while, I tried to find my own voice by trying to mimic others.
Yet that isn't who I was.  It did take a special person to help me, even though I fought him.. Thinking he didn't know me well enough, but the problem wasn't him, but me.  I didn't believe in my own voice as a person and as a writer.
We as a writer don't need others to help find our voices.  We need to find it ourselves.  The first step in becoming the writer, director, producer, super villain, hero or what ever we want to become....we need to find our voice.
So how do we find it?? Search your soul.  If you can't write gore...it's because you probably you are not meant to.  Don't fight it.  I know my voice and it's a pretty scary one.  I can write with own voice, it took years to find it. 
The first step in becoming that unstoppable artist that lies within you is to find your own voice.  Yes, you can people you look up to, but remember that they are nothing but inspiration.  Don't be like them.  You can't be them.  WHY??? Because you are you!!  Not them.  You're voice is unique...and maybe someone will compare you to someone, but don't strive to be anyone but you.
Sit
Soul search
Write some pieces till you find what you would sound like.
Be yourself

Find your voice is not as easy as it may sound until you stop being other people and start being you.



Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Uploading....

Illuminations of the Soul/Obscurities of the Heart was e-published in 2010 and in printed form in 2011.  There is an easy format  for publish the hard print and the E-book format.  Yet...the most stupid mistakes can happen and can frustrations...so I will be doing a blog on publishing your books...for both Amazon, Smashwords and offbookshelf.com

I understand their is going to be people being frustrated with the whole self-publishing...it's fucking work...but I will hopefully try to help

Please stay tuned....



Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Rework

Since I got my new photo program.  I have been re-doing the covers.  Since people have asked to release a few stories, which I am not going to lie...sort of put me in some serious thought.  Should I release singles or as a triple threat??  Which everyone requested both.  Granted as E-books...they will be great, but leave the original concept of the collection of 13-short stories. 

Before

After

I can tell you that it is interesting to redo the covers.  I even did a new cover for Rejection with the new programs.  I must say...it was a lot of fun.  Well...alright loads of fun.  Yes, I should be writing or even correcting but reworking the covers into what I needed seems to be more fitting.  It sort of feels like a before and after.  You have the fat person and the next picture is of the skinny person.
Granted I am not going to say that my covers were fat...they just needed a lot of room for improvement.
I had e-published the Devil's hand, but now...I think I will pay it a visit and redo it better...scarier.  A visit down memory lane just to improve it.
I think the after is much better than the original.  I guess it is a lot like me.  I wasn't much about 3-years ago and now....much better...lol

Stay tuned......

Writing

I have been putting off blogging about some writing points for a while.  I know for a couple of weeks, I was busy trying to restore a lot of missing files that I was nearly completed on my Novella and on my collection of short stories.
I have sniped some people on Amazon.  Which reading their reviews, some had gotten great reviews while others were in my eyes humiliated by telling them that their works has never seen an editor or even worse that their kid could write better than them.
In this day and age where self-publishing has become a fad for those that are wanting to be a writer.  Yet, they are mimicking the best. It's one thing to be a copy-cat but create your own voice.  Real writers work hard to achieve their own voice.  I try to trick it up some. Yet, I when I write I have a several step process.   I can say I have been mentoring someone that is an aspiring writer.
Yet, today I realized that I need to write these writing points...because I can't always be mentoring a person.  I have my own child to worry about.  My writings one day will influence her into following her own dreams despite what anyone says.  I want her to understand that we may be struggling now, but when the time comes she will be able to remember that mom never gave up...even when I have wanted to
I had someone believe in me and I guess I have been wanting to believe in those...to help them out, but hell...I think if I just guide their happy ass to my blogs...then it will save me time.
So...writing points here I come...


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Clowny Terror

I know embracing my demented humor and dislike for clowns has to be worked for something.  So I created this demented, but funny short-short script that will be filmed based on a joking conversation with Chris Warner.  I know one night during our long conversations that made me wish for a clown to come up and scare the crap out of him but in a way that would also make people laugh.
Yes, I'm fucked in the head for even thinking such shit.  Yet again...Chris would really need some sort of Clown to come up and scare the shit out of him.  It could happen with a little cinematic magic.  But I'm pleased with the little short-short and hell It would be nice as a short in a DVD in the start of the movie of in a section. Besides there is tons of film fests that allow for short-shorts....

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~